Carson’s First Day of School
Yesterday was Carson’s first day of preschool! He is attending a church based program once a week, for half of the day.
Before Liam was born I decided that I would homeschool my children until they were in first grade. I have experience in early childhood education & I’m confident in my abilities to educate little ones!
When Carson came along he shook our world upside down. His wild child personality teaches me humility & patience daily. Most importantly, Carson teaches me that I was a fool before I had kids!
Last month we made the decision that Carson will be homeschooled by me four days a week & will go to preschool one day.
According to his teacher he cried on and off the entire first day, which broke my heart. He wanted to be held and the classroom was overstimulating. He was happy when we picked him up and wanted to keep playing. But it was hard knowing he spent so much of the day sad. Thankfully his teacher is optimistic that he would grow to trust and enjoy his time at school.
There were only a few tears shed on our end. Carson and I have literally spent the last sixteen months together. We both desperately needed a break from each other. I had been tossing around the idea of sending him to school for months. I always decided not to because I felt guilty. Guilty that I couldn’t do it by myself, when so many mothers do. Guilty that I was leaving my baby with strangers and guilty that I even wanted time away from him.
Eventually I decided that my happiness and mental health was more important than anyone’s opinion.
