A Second Chance at Motherhood

Oh my sweet Liam Jace, I would give anything to kiss that precious face.

To me, Liam will always be 324 days old. I’ve tried imagining him older but it never sticks. That long haired, chubby faced, two toof smile is permanently engraved in my brain.

Liam is our first born and he will always be Carson’s big brother. But Liam isn’t the oldest anymore. It’s an odd concept, we celebrate Liam’s birthday every year even though he remains an infant in our hearts and minds.

He’s trapped in time, our forever baby.

Carson said Mama for the first time last weekend and my heart just about exploded. It literally brought me to tears. It was the first milestone Carson hit that Liam never did.

I’m beginning a new chapter of my motherhood journey. I’m teaching Carson things I never had the opportunity to teach Liam. Watching Carson grow and explore in ways Liam never did.

Sometimes I feel like I was given a second chance. An opportunity to appreciate every moment more. A chance to do things differently, maybe even better.